Ancient history tells many stories – some created on fantasy and some based on truth. Ancient Mesopotamia has its own share of stories and many of these tales focus on a man named Gilgamesh. The “Epic of Gilgamesh,” tells this man’s life story. Throughout the tale, Gilgamesh struggles with the idea of his own humanity and refuses to believe that his life will come to an end. Being two-thirds god, he perceives himself as a god-like creature. Eventually, however, Gilgamesh gains wisdom on his journey to discover immortality and painfully realizes that his goal is impossible. His grey outlook on life forces him to accept his worst fear – that someday he will die.
In Gilgamesh’s youth, he was a ruler and was, for the most part, praised by the people of the city of Uruk. Currently, death did not worry him. He lived as if he were invulnerable. Later in the epic, a powerful man named Enkidu shows up in Uruk and helps put Gilgamesh’s power into balance. Together Enkidu and Gilgamesh set out on quests and achieve many accomplishments; however, one cannot forget why Enkidu was created in the first place. Enkidu was sent to Gilgamesh because his power was passing its bounds and “Gilgamesh would not leave young girls alone” (“The Epic of Gilgamesh” 50). Although overall a dominant ruler, Gilgamesh is at one point showed as a tough ruler that neglects the wishes of his subjects and rapes women as he pleases. In this regard, does Gilgamesh deserve immortality in the first place? This deeper theoretical question must be spoken before one begins to know why immortality is an impossibility for Gilgamesh. Gilgamesh may have asked himself this question, which may have made him think about his own merit of being immortal. These thoughts helped catalyze his fear that he would die just like the people he cruelly ruled over. In other words, the impossibility of his ethics might have driven his quest for eternal youth.
During one adventure, Enkidu and Gilgamesh go to the Cedar Forest and Humbaba, a monster tasked by the gods with defending the forest, confronts them. After a long fight, Humbaba begs for his life, but Gilgamesh, encouraged by Enkidu, kills him anyway. The gods find out and are angry at this disobedience and ultimately kill Enkidu as punishment. After all, Humbaba was innocent and did not deserve to die. When Enkidu dies and “has turned to clay” in Gilgamesh’s arms, Gilgamesh, scared that he will experience the same fate, “roams open country for long distances; as the words of his friend Enkidu weigh upon him” (“The Epic” 104). When Enkidu dies, Gilgamesh goes into a grief and cannot stop mourning the loss of his friend. He talks to Enkidu’s body as if it was still alive and refuses to bury him. Gilgamesh is depressed and fearful for his own life for numerous reasons. He has had very few close friends in the epic that we know of and when his best friend dies, Gilgamesh does not know what to do without Enkidu and becomes delusional about his condition. Gilgamesh becomes more aware of his humanity because Enkidu’s strength matched his own when he was killed. Gilgamesh resolves to overcome death.
Gilgamesh is determined to live forever, and he begins to track down a mortal named Utnapishtim who was granted eternal life. Gilgamesh overcomes many problems to reach this man, some of which no human had ventured through before. Finally, when he meets Utnapishtim, Gilgamesh explains his wish to be immortal and his fear of death. Utnapishtim challenges him to “not sleep for six days and seven nights” (“The Epic” 116). He is determined to complete this challenge and prove to Utnapishtim and himself that he deserves immortality, however “sleep breathes over him like a fog,” and he is unable to stay awake (“The Epic” 116). Eventually he is awoken and thinks he has only been asleep for a few minutes. He is still full of hopelessness, confident that death is rapidly approaching. His journey ends in failure, but also leads to an important epiphany. He discovers that it is better to die happily than live in fear, but it is unclear if he grips this revelation. Regardless, his journey makes him a wiser ruler.
Death itself invokes fear. We know it exists but not where it leads. The mystery of death, combined with the Mesopotamian outlook, leave fear and sadness to grow in the mind of Gilgamesh. Gilgamesh says, “nobody sees the face of Death. Nobody hears the voice of Death” (“The Epic” 108). He goes on, nothing that “death is a picture that cannot be drawn” (“The Epic” 109). This form or force that is death cannot be explained. Gilgamesh believes that something that cannot be heard or seen but that can attack and kill at any moment is something to be feared. Death gives us no clues as to what happens after life. We can only think as to how this shadowy element works. Finally, all we know is that the human body decomposes. This ugly outlook, this hourglass of life always being tired, leaves Gilgamesh feeling only empty and sad.
Some argue that Gilgamesh has already achieved immortality. Although he is physically dead, his stories and journeys live on through the written word. His tale has been copied and translated into many texts and languages. In this sense, he has indeed gained eternal life. He lives on not through his body but through ink and paper. However, when Gilgamesh sets out to find everlasting youth he is trying to escape a physical death so that he may exist on earth forever. Living figuratively would not have been enough for Gilgamesh. Some of the legends portray Gilgamesh as a malicious and vicious ruler, yet Gilgamesh is no longer alive and cannot influence how his stories are read. In this sense he has no control over his life. Although we read about him today, he was ruler of the past, and is no longer alive in the present.
Gilgamesh prepares to leave Utnapishtim, still unsuccessful, anxious, and upset. However, before he bids farewell, Utnapishtim reveals a secret of the gods. He informs Gilgamesh that there exists a thorny plant in the Apsu that restores youth. Upon hearing this Gilgamesh weighs himself down and dives into the sea to recover the plant. Even though Gilgamesh finds this plant, he does not eat it on the spot. He decides to wait and “give it to an elder to eat, and so try out the plant” (“The Epic” 119). However, since it was never tested, one cannot be sure that the plant will do as it promises in the first place. When he finds out the plant is stolen, grief takes over him as “tears flowed over his cheeks” (“The Epic” 119). Except for the death of Enkidu, this is the only other time that Gilgamesh cries. Alone and afraid, Gilgamesh realizes that his last chance to find immortality has passed. However, there is no confirmation that the plant restores youth, so one cannot say with certainty that immortality exists in such a form. Although Gilgamesh was not able to try the plant himself, the snake which stole the plant may have experienced the plant’s effects. The night that the thorny plant was stolen by the snake; “it took it away, and it shed its scaly skin” (“The Epic” 119). This quote in the epic reveals an uncertainty. When the snake sheds its skin, it could be aging or getting younger. Because this is unclear, we cannot confirm that immortality existed in the form of a plant. Supposing the plant was effective, Gilgamesh would have dived back down to get more of the plant. This leaf of life is more symbolic and is used to show that immortality, like death, is not concrete. Gilgamesh is adapted to fighting forces that he can see such as Humbaba, the Bull of Heaven, and other warriors. When he deals with immortality which has no physical form, Gilgamesh is disappointed and ultimately unprepared to fight the unknown.
Evidence clearly shows that Gilgamesh died a fearful man, hopelessly grasping the dream of immortality. When he saw powerful Enkidu die, he realized that he would see the same fate and set out to change his destiny. However, does someone who kills an innocent beast and rapes innocent women really deserve to live forever? There is no proof in the epic that he admits his crimes or that he feels any guilt. Regardless, he sets out to find Utnapishtim and prove to himself that he earns the right to be young again. On all his journeys, Gilgamesh can see himself aging, and he spends countless hours looking for something that does not exist. One can only wonder why Gilgamesh sought so strongly to be immortal when his life as a king, a judge, and a traveler was ultimately successful.